Blogs. Do people actually read them in today’s endlessly busy and distracted world? I will soon find out. But whether anyone reads or not, I have always found writing to be an endeavor that mostly benefits the author. If others benefit as well, then that is an added bonus – and a gratifying one.
This blog will be loosely structured with many topics, all from my particular perspective. Therefore, it would seem prudent to share a little about myself.
I am a 48-year old single gay male living in Eastern Connecticut, where I was born during the Cuban Missile Crisis of 1962 (the famous “missiles of October”). I was a somewhat troubled, melancholy, lonely child who often felt like I was living in a semi-autistic fog, and those old feeling states have occasionally plagued me into adulthood.
I am a lifelong introvert, something I haven’t really appreciated about myself until recently. It was a bit of a revelation when I read the textbook definition of introversion and almost every trait rang true. I am overwhelmed easily by too much contact or stimulation. I recharge my batteries by being alone, and strongly crave alone time after a few hours of being social. I usually abhor chitchat, cell phones, cocktail parties and interviews. I don’t like being interrupted or put on the spot, because it can take an introvert time to focus and I need time to process my thoughts and form a response. I express myself much better on paper than in person. I have been praised since grade school for my writing skills. I have few friends, and the few relationships I have that I enjoy are the deeper ones. I dislike surface contact. Things have to have meaning and make sense or I have little patience for them. I’m a good listener, provided what I’m hearing has some depth. I am drawn to introspection and reflection.
I am also a lifelong entrepreneur, having started my own business when I was 18 and keeping it for almost 30 years. Working for myself appealed to me greatly as I dislike authority figures and taking orders. I am self-motivated and don’t need someone barking at me. Since I now work for someone else (long story for future post), I have to endure some barking. Hence the bumper sticker on my car: “Wag More. Bark Less.” Praise goes much further than criticism, yet seems seldom used in the average workplace.
Some interests/passions of mine include music (symphonic, esp. Beethoven and Tchaikovsky; opera (Puccini, Gilbert & Sullivan); Neil Diamond, who I have seen in concert a dozen times and whose music I have a deep affinity for; reading (a true introvert passion! Love Shakespeare, Dickens, King, Koontz, Preston/Childs); American history, the presidency, quantum physics and the true nature of “reality,” consciousness studies, metaphysics, and basically the notion that we create our own reality.
I greatly admire those who manage to creatively express themselves in ways that others relate deeply to – especially, those who take their pain and torment and create something divine (Tchaikovsky, Beethoven). I consider Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony to be the greatest work of art I have ever experienced, and have a separate blog posting about it. As Robert Bly observed, “where your wound is, that is where your genius will be.” Tchaikovsky is another hero in this department.
I hope you enjoy my posts and find something that strikes a chord or two in you. To quote a passage from my favorite movie, Shadowlands, “we read to know we’re not alone.” I hope I make you feel less alone.